Shaymaca
My blogs
| Gender | Male |
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| Occupation | Addiction Counsellor |
| Location | Oxford, United Kingdom |
| Introduction | Addiction took me to a place of suffering and overwhelming loneliness. In it's grip, which incidently had many faces, there was little respite. Eventually the "four horsemen" were my constant companions. I felt it would be so till I died. Nothing else seemed possible. However, a 12th step in another man's heart gave me the first flicker of hope that it might be otherwise. Recovery started that day, 6th Nov 2002, and a power, a grace if you will, entered my life and has separated me from drugs and alcohol since. How did that happen? I don't know, other than "I wanted it to happen" and was prepared to "do what it took to let it happen". That grace still continues to work in my life separating me from all the other madness that can run around between my ears. Provided I stay close, put that power first and foremost in my life, in all my affairs, then all is well. If I don't,my experience has been that I start a slide that takes me on another bankrupt run, across an unforgiving landscape with the "four horsemen" coming over the horizon. Those hideous Four Horsemen — Terror, Bewilderment, Frustration, Despair. I really don't want to live my life like that any more! |