Leah77

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Gender	Female
Occupation	Full-time mother & Artist
Location	United Kingdom
Introduction	My husband and I endured a 4 year long struggle to conceive our baby girl,now 22 months.In 2008 I had both my fallopian tubes removed following 2 consecutive ectopic pregnancies.It took 4 IVF cycles before we finally got that long-wished-for BFP. However,this is not a blog about how we managed to conceive our miracle baby.This is a blog about living beyond conception as a wife, a mother and as a woman. Infertility is about so much more than achieving your desired family target of 2.4 children.It is a condition that wreaks havoc upon your sense of identity and relationship with others, provoking a whole plethora of negative emotions that at their most volatile can sometimes make you feel like you are lost within a psychological minefield. You feel so closed off to the world, even to your closest friends and family. In fact, I often feel even more cut off now because I believe I no longer have the right to feel any negative emotion whatsoever. I love my little girl and her daddy more than words can express. But I am still infertile. I will always be infertile. It is time for me to come out to the world about what that means to me.