PaRaLyZeD SoUL
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| Gender | Female |
|---|---|
| Industry | Science |
| Location | okinawa, Japan |
| Introduction | I've been feeling really depressed lately. And I think I've been making it worse and worse for myself. Like, I'll lay on my bed and just think of eveyrthing bad that has happened. Then I'll think of everything that I dont have and I'll daydream of things that I want to happen to myself..but then I feel worse because I know that I could never do those things because I'm afraid to step out of my comfort zone.. Everyday i wake up in deep thought. Some call it daydreaming, some call it mindwandering......but for me its more than just those things. Its my way of hiding my real feelings and making sure noone gets close. Some sort of defense mechanism. I`ve done this pretty steadily for the past year, i`ve felt so alone. I dont understand why i feel this way when i have so many people who care about me and my life and are willing to help. im in a struggle here or a battle u could call it with myself and i need to break myself of this now before it becomes to big of a problem. |
| Interests | kickinは接合する….surfin網。 makinの場所。 雑談 |
| Favorite movies | IDK..LMAO..meron b ko non..wala ata..IHATEのロマンチックな映画。!!! THERE' S幸せな終りのような事無し!!! |
| Favorite music | SMOTHER ME, THE USED,,,Man, everyone is saying how their boyfriend/girlfriend sang this song to them, it makes me feel so bad. I absolutely LOVE this song, words can't describe how perfect this song is. But when I hear it, I can't help but get sad. Because this boy.. this boy who is so amazing that I like so freaking much, I can't say his name without smiling until my cheeks hurt.. It makes me think of this boy who's unsure.. because he doesn't want to get hurt... He shouldn't be afraid to get hurt.. if anything I should be But it makes me feel so happy, because it makes me daydream, daydream of him singing it to me (which he would never do anyway). Anyway, this song is amazing, it's probably my favorite song ever, or maybe it's Find A Way. But this song is BASICALLY amazing. |
| Favorite books | manga. esp zettai kareshi (absolute boyfriend) (33 chapters) but i dont like the end of the story.. T_T this manga story made me cry..,i also like LOVE MONSTER (82 chapters), korou and hiyo. the demon king and the white crow.., uhmm. i like SHINIGAMI LOVERS,, sei and miku. 7th PERIOD IS A SECRET.. so cool..uhmm.. AI HIME` AI TO HIMEGOTO (mao & jin-nii) ITS NOT THAT MY DARLING (yuchan & maiko), TONARI NO HIJIRI-KUN (BOOK I-V) |