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Mormonkoolaid

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Gender	Male
Introduction	For 30 years I was an orthodox, testimony like a rock, believing Latter-Day-Saint. I knew for a long time that there was more to the story than I had been told, but was content with my life and didn't feel too compelled to rock the boat. Then I finally got the guts to look at the church and its history objectively without fear of what I might find. Now I don't think that my testimony will ever be the same. I'm not sure that I believe any of it anymore. A big part of me wants to quit church all together, but for familial and other cultural reasons, feel unable to do so. I'm trapped. As much part of me wants to believe, I can't bring myself to that either. Sigh... I don't know what to do.

Gender

Male

Introduction

For 30 years I was an orthodox, testimony like a rock, believing Latter-Day-Saint. I knew for a long time that there was more to the story than I had been told, but was content with my life and didn't feel too compelled to rock the boat. Then I finally got the guts to look at the church and its history objectively without fear of what I might find. Now I don't think that my testimony will ever be the same. I'm not sure that I believe any of it anymore. A big part of me wants to quit church all together, but for familial and other cultural reasons, feel unable to do so. I'm trapped. As much part of me wants to believe, I can't bring myself to that either. Sigh... I don't know what to do.