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Introduction	Some people choose drugs. Some people choose alcohol. I chose to cut. What started as an impulse became an addiction for 13 years. Cutting was the one thing I could rely on to relieve the intense emotional pain I was in. It allowed me to have control over something in my life, when everything else seemed to be falling apart. I cut because it was easier to bleed than it was to feel. As the cutting became more frequent, my brain connected to the false sense of relief I got from bad feelings - I craved it every time the pain was too difficult to bear. Because I was overpowered by emotions, I could never communicate with anyone how I was feeling. Cutting numbed and distracted me from what was killing me inside...it was my quick fix.

Introduction

Some people choose drugs. Some people choose alcohol. I chose to cut. What started as an impulse became an addiction for 13 years. Cutting was the one thing I could rely on to relieve the intense emotional pain I was in. It allowed me to have control over something in my life, when everything else seemed to be falling apart. I cut because it was easier to bleed than it was to feel. As the cutting became more frequent, my brain connected to the false sense of relief I got from bad feelings - I craved it every time the pain was too difficult to bear. Because I was overpowered by emotions, I could never communicate with anyone how I was feeling. Cutting numbed and distracted me from what was killing me inside...it was my quick fix.