innersparkle
Blogs I follow
| Gender | Female |
|---|---|
| Introduction | I was diagnosed with anorexia in summer 2008 and by the time i finally got help i was dangerously underweight, threatened with hospitalisation! I was obsessed with exercise, every calorie was/is counted, Im tormented by the thoughts, the scale could never be low enough, just a few more pounds, id be perfect if i was just a few pounds lighter! But the weight gradually went on but i didnt do it healthily, i became determined to turn my life around, i wanted to get better and to do that i believed i needed to gain weight..i binged!3 years on and the illness is stronger than ever, currently a normal weight but slowly the pounds fall off, i strive to see the bones-this means i cant be fat!The obsession is taking over, i can feel it inside, im scared but excited, my sense of control is returning! Do i want to do this again....maybe i do? Maybe its already out of my control! |
| Interests | zumba, salsa, cinema, cooking |