KidnappedKelly

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Gender	Female
Location	Allston, Ma, United States
Introduction	I was hospitalized and diagnosed with Bipolar disorder when I was 16. I don't have auditory or visual hallucinations, so it was hideable. I have largely ignored the swings and only treated the depression with SSRIs intermittently. I thought I could manage it on my own. I was embarassed. Over a two week period I experienced a 4 day manic phase, the longest since high school, followed by an 8 day low. Essentially, a perfect storm formed inside my head and left me standing on a precipice. I wasn't sure the light was going to turn back on, as it always had before and I sunk onto hopelessness. I had to make a choice because I did not believe I would be able to survive another day of darkness. I was ready to end my life. I didn't want to, but I couldn't go on in my current state and asking for help seemed so impossible. I chose to contact my family and friends with the help of a little liquid courage and went to the emergency room. This blog will hopefully serve as the story of my recovery as I relearn who I am by allowing all the pieces I have kept hidden to be revealed. I hope it can help others see that if they ask, someone may just throw them a rope.
Interests	http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/bipolar-disorder/complete-index.shtml