preacherhouse
My blogs
| Gender | Male |
|---|---|
| Occupation | artist |
| Location | ilwaco, Washington, United States |
| Links | Audio Clip |
| Introduction | You can't see what you don't believe exists. so it's hard to describe who I am, I sit in memory like august heat. I try to recapture who I was 3 or 4 years ago, before I stepped out of the house in attempts to re-invent myself into social relationships. Before then I was comfortable distant from people including my immediate family. I could dream like I was the only boat going out to sea, lost in my own thoughts unaware of normality, like marriage or taxes. I was pleasantly suicidal and in my own mind a genius without knowledge of basic understanding that is needed to live a normal life. My think now is full of tears as I try to squeeze back into the cupboard. The loss of my young adult life I’ve equated to martyrdom seeing my attempts at survival as a hospital bed where during meals we were not allowed knives. I have a slight optimism about the future but as I think this over this god doesn’t owe me anything. This optimism comes out of me being absent in my own life and circumstances for if I was fully aware I’d be dead on the bathroom floor. |
| Interests | songwriting, reading, writing, film, politcal theory, linguistics, the bible, sex, jesus |
| Favorite Music | Lucinda Williams, The Flying Burrito Brothers, Johnny Cash, Bruce Spingsteen, Wilco, Ryan Adams, Son Volt, Uncle Tupelo, Elvis Costello, Hank Williams, Skip James, Steve Earle, Bob Dylan, The Band. |
| Favorite Books | East of Eden, Heart of a Dog, Post Office, Mockingbird Wish Me Luck, Master and Margarita, The Fixer, Western Mysctism, Chronicles of a Death Retold, the Catcher in the Rye, the Bell Jar, At the Edge of History, Sanatarum Under the Hourglass, Seize the Day, On the Road, Notes from the Underground, the Fixer, Night, Nausea, Lanterns on the Levee, Jesus's Son, In the Belly of The Beast, Hunger |
If you suffer for doing good then do you suffer for doing bad later.