once again I can relate to this post! I think church was my idol, it made me feel like a 'good christian' and now that its gone I am finding what the real foundation of my faith is. I too feel very very lonely in this walk but you know what I think the ones who truly love the lord are the ones with few friends and more enemies.. My friend is Jesus.. I say this to encourage myself also. The biggest thing for me was my 30th birthday party.. i invited almost the whole church and only 1 person arrived.. obviously i had dozens of my unsaved friends come and celebrate my birthday. I saw then how fake it all was. They were not my friends. There was no community or real fellowship. Not 1 person has contacted me since I left and in a sense I am relieved because if they did phone, I would have to tell them what I think and believe and I think I am not ready for that. I am learning to find myself beyond church walls. it's lonely and scary but I do think its a good thing and I think you are seeng that too :)
October 17, 2008 at 3:04 AM
I really like this post and I know how you feel. My heart goes out to you, because I've been there and I know it's hard. But I know God will bring new people into your life. We were in our former church for over 20 years and we were shunned and talked about after many years of service. But we have found a new group of friends who are real and they love God and they love us. You will too.I am going to put a link to your blog on mine. I know your story will help people.
October 17, 2008 at 7:45 AM
posted by DomHyo at 8:40 PM on Oct 16, 2008