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Gender Female
Occupation Social Worker, but on break...on healing journey
Location Southern California, United States
Introduction I have worked in the mental health field more than 20 years and have been in psychotherapy for more than 20 years (including a five year break) with the same therapist. I currently have the diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder (recurrent, moderate), Chronic Post-traumatic Stress Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Eating Disorder NOS, and Dissociative Disorder NOS due memories that were repressed for more than 35 years which include neglect, physical, emotional and sexual abuse. I've also struggled with self-injury, suicidal ideation and issues with my body/weight since I can remember.

My first memory of having a suicidal thought was when I was two. I've been a Christian since 1981, which has saved my life. My journey has led me to this anonymous place where I can tell the truth about my life via journal entries from the past. I will also include information regarding my diagnosis and behavior that I struggle with day to day. I hope that it will be helpful to you as it is to me. (blog started 5.8.08) I also have a special interests in developmental disabilities, mental health,the elderly and GLBT issues.
Interests When I'm not depressed, Church, Christianity, psychology, psychiatry, health, music, baking, cooking, shopping, theatre, musicals and concerts. Peanuts, Calvin & Hobbes, Far Side, computer games, crossword puzzles, jigsaw puzzles, and more.
Favorite Movies I don't remember because I haven't been able to go into a movie theatre or have the attention span or focus to do so at home. Science Fiction, Musicals, Romance, Biographies, Star Wars, Star Trek, Disney animation, Steven Spielberg, Back to the Future, Indiana Jones, Big Chill, Enemy Mine, Forrest Gump, Stand by Me, A Chorus Line, Grease, Adventures in Babysitting, Top Gun
Favorite Music I used to listen to music constantly until I became depressed, Contemporary Christian Worship, Vineyard Worship Music, 60's & 70's music, singer/songwriter, pop/rock, Andrew Lloyd Webber songs, Beatles, Crosby Stills & Nash, Cream, Eric Clapton, James Taylor, Carole King, Carly Simon, Simon & Garfunkel, Eagles, Kenny Loggins, Chicago, Barry Manilow, Elton John, Bee Gees, Olivia Newton-John, No Doubt, John Mayer, Goo Goo Dolls, Matchbox 20, Kelly Clarkson, Amy Grant, Stephen Curtis Chapman
Favorite Books I used to love to read until I became depressed, Bible, Psychology, Cookbooks, Science Fiction, biographies, humor, Cookwise, The Gourmet Cookbook, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Bunnicula, Dr. Seuss, Cook's Illustrated magazine, C.S Lewis, and more

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